Don't cry. *Updated*

I don't even know how to start telling you this without looking like a passive-agressive bitch. I know what I want to talk about but I'm not sure how should I do it.

There was a time I thought I could get anything if I struggled hard enough for it. Turns out things are not always like that. 

There was a time I thought I could represent something for someone. Turns out that I always seem to give too much of myself.

I've always thought that women should be a different way of what they actually are, and I always forget the fact that they're not. And in the meantime I became my own type of girl, and it doesn't matches the rest. I can't stay still waiting for something I want to come by itself. I just go after it. No matter how much it takes. 

I can't manage the fact that there are quiet shy girls that never chase after ANYTHING, and apparently life seems to give them all. A good job, a good lifestyle, good friends, surrounded by good people that loves them and takes care of them and they're always at hand in case they want or need something.

'Cause I'm not like that.

I'm not shy, nor quiet. I became an alpha female, a pack leader, a little bit of a lone wolf. It may seem great but being like this comes with a prize. Which is the fact that you realize that you could never, EVER, become like those girls, and that no one is going to be there and offer you EXACTLY what you need or want, when you need it or want it, because they know you're going to go find it by yourself.

But it is not always like that.

There are certain things you can't get just by yourself.

I don't think it's fair.

I'm getting tired of being a predator.

****UPDATE****

This is one of those songs you come across randomly in your mp3 player and all of a sudden you realize they say EXACTLY what you want.

TELL THEM, GORDON.